Why were we put on this earth? What good is it?

Life is nothing but one long punishment.

Ironicly, for every moment that im stil alive, a piece of me dies inside.

I have no friends , none at all. I dont know why, about 5/6 years ago i was one of them girls who was friends with everyone. Back then i couldn't find any time to myself, now i have nothing but...

They just all seemed to leave me, no warning or anyhing. The sad thing is, its happened to me so many times i grew to know when it was going to happen. So i had to spend like the last 2/3 weeks knowing that this friend was going to leave too and i could never do anything to stop it from happening.

I dont go out at all, there's no-one to go out for. Anyway, whenever I do go out like when i have to go round my mums or something, i just know everyones looking at me thinking what a sad loser i am. And their right!3 I have nothing to live for, but my suicide attempts never work.

You may not believe me but ive taken over 50 overdoses. Anything to get me away from this pain. But its never worked. I dont know what im doing wrong, tons of people who want to live die everyday so why cant i when i DONT want to live? ....