My best m8 Daryl.

Alwayz been there for me and i hope he alwayz will.

Lovez ya hun

xxx

I HATE MEN!

ALL THEY DO IS FUK U AROUND!

THERES THIS GUY I LIKE BUT I DIDNT THINK I WAS GOOD LOOKING ENOUGH FOR HIM BUT HE SAID TO ME LOOKS DONT MATTER SO I ASKED HIM OUT BUT HE SAID NO. HE SAID HE DIDNT WANT TO RUIN OUR FRIENDSHIP.

THEN YESTERDAY MY CUZ ASKED ME TO GO ON HER EMAIL AND SEE IF SHE HAD AN EMAIL FROM A JOB SHE WENT FOR AN INTERVIEW WITH AND I SAW THAT SHE HAD AN EMAIL FROM THIS BOY. I COULDNT RESIST LOOKING AT IT SO I OPENED IT UP AND HERES WHAT IT SAID -

OMG YOULL NEVER GUESS WHAT KELLY JUST DID?!? SHE ASKED ME OUT!!! AS IF I WOS GOING TO SAY YES! I MEAN HAVE YOU SEEN HER LATELY! SHE LOOKS A RIGHT MESS! I WAS TRYIN SO HARD NOT TO LAUGH WHEN SHE ASKED LOL DONT TELL HER THOUGH COZ I TOLD HER I SAID NO COZ I DIDNT WANT TO RUIN OUR FRIENDSHIP SHE IS SO GULIBLE! WELL ANYWAY WOT YOU UP 2?

AND IT ENDS THERE. I WOS CRYING WHEN I READ IT. NOW I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO.

SHOULD I SAY SOMETHING? SHOULD I KEEP QUIET? WHAT?!?

PLEASE TELL ME WHAT TO DO COS I HAVE NO IDEA...

I thought he loved me.

I really did.

But it turns out he didnt feel the same.

He was the one person i could confide in. The one person i could feel comftable around.

And now he's ended it.

Maybe my problems were too much for him. Maybe they'll always be too much. Maybe i should just gat used to being alone.

One things for sure though, i'll never love another the way i loved him.

It's funny, but i still love him even though he's broken my heart.

Why were we put on this earth? What good is it?

Life is nothing but one long punishment.

Ironicly, for every moment that im stil alive, a piece of me dies inside.

I have no friends , none at all. I dont know why, about 5/6 years ago i was one of them girls who was friends with everyone. Back then i couldn't find any time to myself, now i have nothing but...

They just all seemed to leave me, no warning or anyhing. The sad thing is, its happened to me so many times i grew to know when it was going to happen. So i had to spend like the last 2/3 weeks knowing that this friend was going to leave too and i could never do anything to stop it from happening.

I dont go out at all, there's no-one to go out for. Anyway, whenever I do go out like when i have to go round my mums or something, i just know everyones looking at me thinking what a sad loser i am. And their right!3 I have nothing to live for, but my suicide attempts never work.

You may not believe me but ive taken over 50 overdoses. Anything to get me away from this pain. But its never worked. I dont know what im doing wrong, tons of people who want to live die everyday so why cant i when i DONT want to live? ....